once upon a time…

Once upon a time…you were everything.

I would have swum the ocean for you…even though you wouldn’t even jump puddles for me.

I shunned and hid the real me for an entire thirteen years…for you… to make you happy.

I stood up to anybody who maligned you…and yet, never do I recall you doing the same?

I was completely in…mind, body, soul…one hundred percent…

And all this time, I thought you were too.

So why is it that I feel like I was nothing?

Why do I still feel that now?

Where did it all go wrong?

Once upon a time…you were everything to me.

And now…you are nothing.

You are non-existent. Dead. Obliterated.

You have no idea, what you have done.

No idea.

I am angry, yet relieved.

I am furious, yet resigned.

And my fairy tale ending that I was counting on…now remains elusive.

My orderly world, chaotic.

Once upon a time…you were everything to me.

Making it as a couple held supreme importance.

Through thick, thin.  Good and bad.

You were my life fuel, my anchor.

And now it is over…over…

Once upon a time… I would have died for you.

Yet would you have done the same for me?

When the chips were down, I wanted a hundred percent LOYALTY…nothing less.

Because I gave the same, didn’t I?

I may not have been faithful.

I may not have been perfect.

I may have been too stubborn for my own good.

But I was always a hundred percent in…always.

Once upon a time, I would have taken the blame.

For you.  For us.  For our downfall.

Society would have done the same.

But now I know better.

Now I am wiser.

I was always a hundred percent in

You were in fifty.

There it is…right there.

This may not be your definition of why we fell apart…

But it is mine…

It is fully mine…

To me…and in the end, not giving it as good as you got

…like how I did…that was the ultimate…

The ultimate act of betrayal.

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